New Beginnings by Danielle D.
It has taken me far too long to finish writing this blog post. Truth is I am just really thankful to be here. I’m thankful for everything in my life. So I suppose I will tell you how I ended up here. I came here because of a question I asked. And I was delivered the answer in the most obvious way. There was no way I could ignore it. I needed to trust the signs being put in front of me and move, move out of the stuck place I had been dwelling in for so long.
“If I am supposed to move to Columbus, then show me an eagle.”
I walked down into my parents’ basement after asking this question. Opened an old life magazine to a random page and there it was the words “Red Eagle.”
“I don’t buy it, that was a coincidence, show me another eagle.”
Immediately after this, I opened a box of my grandmothers. As I opened one of her journals, the inside of the cover was blank.
Except for two words, in her handwriting. “Gray Eagle”
My parents came home later that day and I told them the story of the eagles. They laughed like they always do at me and say things like “Where the heck did you come from” but I could tell this time that they actually thought it was a little strange to.
That same day my parents went to visit Marilyn, a close relative of ours.
As they were pulling out of the drive way, she stops them.
“Wait, I have something for you.”
She explains to them she had been going through old stuff and found these three prints. She told my parents, “Give them to the kids.”
It was of an eagle.
I knew Columbus was where I was supposed to be. I knew even before I asked for the eagle symbol. The eagle just helped me realize that my journey was bigger than the views of the mountains, although at the time it didn’t seem that way.
Why Columbus? Of all the places I could go, why was there this strong pull to Columbus?
I guess you could say I was afraid of what I didn’t know. I had been holding onto this idea of what I thought my life was going to be. I was holding onto the person I had created, afraid to change, afraid and unsure what that looked like.
Unable to let go of the past, and afraid of a future that I could not predict.
Too often I let fear of the unknown control my life. And so three days later I put my two weeks in at my job. Two days after that I bought a vehicle I could afford off of my aunt that was big enough for my dog and I to live out of. And in just 14 days I found myself driving down to Columbus, Ohio with AYC plugged into my GPS. No expectations, no plan and no idea what would happen next but with the intention to belong and participate in a community that supported my path and to learn more about this practice from someone whose been at it much longer than me. This practice has literally become my guide. It started as and continues to be my path toward healing and self-discovery and while everything has seemed to fall right into place, I realize how it has led me to such incredible individuals who are an important piece of that journey. We are all one. We are all connected.
I have been in Columbus for three months now. I almost can’t believe it has only been 3 months, it feels like a whole year has gone by! And all those things that I could not predict ended up being better than I could have ever expected. That giant force and energy that pulled me here was the community at AYC, I felt the love the first time I stepped into the Mysore room and it never left me. I remember wondering what it would be like to be a part of it and now here I am and I couldn’t be happier to be here with you all. The amount of support that I have received from this community is unreal and my words could never express how thankful I am for each and every one of you.
I sat on the roof on Thursday evening before class with my notebook in my hand, beginning to write about how I got here. The sun was warm and the train began to sound. As soon as I turned around the cart I saw whizzing by was dark blue and sure enough there was a red eagle on it.
I am exactly where I need to be. And everything I need is already right in front of me.
Thanks AYC, you continue to be my inspiration every single day.